leong26

Burthday

2005-06-26T15:39:39Z

Pic of my bday cake, it was bought by wilni...it surprising..really.. anyway.. i had to thank her very much 4 the cake n all...hehe thankz.. it was a wonderful nite i ever had..it would be unforgettable.i had a great nite the rest.. thankz so much to accompant this nite to remember..thankz a lot..same goes to wilni..thankz 4 ya cake..

hehe

2005-05-06T13:07:22Z

A pic of my new pet, a lil bunny...hehe. i`m damn happy hehe.. well, soft of..hehe at least got someone to keep me company thou... n still got one more eh.. i bought a pair.. another is a black one..with a lil white stripe hehe..

the pic kinda dark..haha

leong26 @ 2005-04-13T16:37:00

2005-04-13T08:35:24Z

problem arising

2005-04-09T09:34:48Z

Having too much problem in my mind..i can`t sleep well..it`s been going 4 a mth...whenever i close my eyes.. all i can think about is this n that..i`m tring hard to avoid it but it just keep going.. i do have sleepless night at times... it`s just fucking bad... sometimes i feel like screaming or find someone to talk too..but in the end..it`s always me holding on the problem in my heart..i duno how to express the words i wanna say...i hadn o one to talk to..it`s like..all of them are bz if their own thing n all...i just duno how long i can`t stand this pressure inside my mind...i`m afraid that i`ll go crazy...

All i can think of right now...is that.. no one is able to understand me..no one is always there when i need them...but instead it`s the other way around.. i`m not complaining about that they shoud always 'Be there' when i needed them.. sometimes i really need a shoulder to cry on or a person who would care to listen to my problem.. even if it`s 4 a few minute.. i really would appreciate it..

i had to smile n laugh in front of them just to hide the pain,deep down inside,it hurts.. i need someone who could understand what i really feel n give me a good advise..not just someone who just hear but can`t feel my feelings..

in this world.. it`s hard to find someone whom u can trust n always be there for you u know.. i just feel...sad,lonely,angry and miserable..

*sigh* what am i to do? what am i to do?.....

Myself

2005-04-02T14:27:28Z

I`m feeling low this minute...i duno why or what hapen to me...i`m just not in a mood right now...i feel like my whole world is turned upside down..i`m going nowhere.. it`d dark n cold.. i felt miserable n confused, sometimes. along the road i`m taking.. i see no help which i needed...hopeless n moodless is what i have to say about myself right now...

Turn to friends is what most people tell me to find , when i have problems..i i find myself with no answers to it..it`s no that i don wanna find some of them..some are busy with their lives n i don`t wanna interfere them..

This is the only fucking place i can let go of what i feel inside my heart..it really is hard when u have no one u can turn to , to talk about ur problems...come to think about it..some ppl come to me to talk about their problems..i try my best to help them n when it come to my problem, i cant` even solve it...haha

I have this malay exam on the 24th this month..hopefully i pass thru this test..so that i can have a Yellow I.C. i heard that it`s difficult to get it..it depends on ur luck...it`s been a long time i haven`t taken any test..i feel wierd..n my malay language seems to be sinking n my tongue is kinda tied up whenever i speak malay(so is mandarine).. no matter what..this is a chance for me.. i will do my very best i can to get the yellow i.c. just gotta think positive n relax myself... i know everything is gonna be alright.. i just have to be myself n relax..

it`s almost 10.30 now..n it`s saturday noght.. n i`m at home..so boring..i should be out there doing something..watching a movie kah,drinking kah or prehaps doing something crazy...

Another day has pass..just hope that this sadd-ass feeling of mine whould go away..by tomorow..coz i know..there will be a better tomorrow.. n it`s sunday! damn.. i gotta wake up late...coz it`s a sunday.. :|

leong26 @ 2005-03-19T16:15:00

2005-03-19T08:14:37Z

The vidz is almost complete..just need to add a few more things..then it`s complete.. whee!!

A Chance

2005-03-07T14:00:46Z

As some of people who knew me quite a long time should know i`m crazy about streetball..lol. i know.. they say i`m crazy..i guess it`s about the inspiration that made me so into streetball..haha

Anyways, this afternoon i was chatting wif a streetballer from Florida..a well known baller..he one of the few ppl who has versus against "Hotsauce" a very well knows streetball from And1 ..i`m serious..this aint no bullshit.. u know what i`m saying? And those know play streetball/basketball should know him, he`s the one who made streetball popular in brunei n if u duno him..well try to have a look of what his doing on And1 Mixtape Volume3. if u see that..u`ll know what i`m saying..everyone is trying to follow his step..it`s Hot.. u know what i mean?

This baller, who is know as 'Tru Baller', thats what ppl call him. he`s got all kind of moves..good ones..i`ve seen most of his clips thou..it`s off the hook.. n he has a streetball team known as 'DIME' it`s a team which consist of many good players..ranging from dunkers to handlers.. well..he gave me a chance to put my own streetball video on DIME site for 1 time..n it`s a pretty great thing for me..it was an opportinuty,u know what i`m saying?

I`m gonna do extra work man..to do the very best i can to put the flavour in the video..gonna make a SICK one..haha.

Whoever is reading this..be prepare to see my video on their site man :p peace out ;p. Holla.

surprise

2005-02-25T13:13:37Z

My female cat has just given birth..damn..thats surprising..i wonder how many kittens i will be seeing.. oh..this suspence is killing me..lol

R.I.P

2005-02-21T13:14:49Z

May uncle yap, who suddenly passed away due to cancer yesterday night on 20/2/2005.May his soul rest in peace..Bless You..

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!

2005-02-14T14:19:01Z

Happy valentines day to you all.. whether ur single or not.. if ur not single.. then i wanna say HOA FREAKING LUCKY ARE YOU! :P n to those who R SINGLE..don`t be sad yea..there will the a better person for u next year..just hang on to it yea..hehe. Hope y`all have a loving evening ;p

leong26 @ 2005-02-13T14:48:00

2005-02-13T06:44:54Z

3rd day of new year..hehe this year new year boring le...

Just found out that my basketball has been punctured..*sigh* it has been wif me 4 1 year plus..haha.. later i might buy a new bball.. boring le..duno what to type in here..

Hope that, that someone is fine..hope that ur cured form ur flu or fever or watever..hehe

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Happy Chinese New Year 2005

2005-02-09T16:17:13Z

I wanan wish everyone a happy chinese new year 2005! wish y`all be prosperous n good health hehe..hope y`all have many ' Ang Pow`s' hehe :P

leong26 @ 2005-02-03T21:24:00

2005-02-03T13:22:25Z

*sigh* i feel weak n all...i still can`t accept the truth...i really tried my best..but in the end..it came out the other way round..the day i found out about it..i was hoping that i was dreaming so that i won`t feel the pressure, pressuring me..i wasn`t dreaming..it`s reality..bottom line.. i have to face the fact it happen..can`t do no shit about it.. just have to carry the road on my own..

leong26 @ 2005-01-29T21:38:00

2005-01-29T13:30:25Z

For Those who supported n believe that i can make it...i`m deeply sorry to say that i have failed you...i don`t deserve ur respect or anything.... i never thought it would end this way..i can`t believe it..it`s not the way i had imagine or predicted.. i know it`s no use cryin over spill milk...i guess i just have to let it be...

leong26 @ 2005-01-27T22:02:00

2005-01-27T13:51:33Z

Damn...i sprained my lef leg man.. i duno how i did it.. something wrong wif the vein i guess...

leong26 @ 2005-01-23T21:00:00

2005-01-23T12:50:32Z

Feeling very tired...not enough sleep...i`m having panda eyes now...shyt..hate it so much.. no more hamsem ah me when i have panda eyes...*sigh* haha..

Part Of Life

2005-01-22T14:20:56Z

If you're afraid to love a person because of
friendship, you have two choices: either tell what
you feel and let the love take place or hide
the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions.
It's hard for two people to love each other when
they live in two different worlds but when these
two worlds collide and become one, that's what
you call magic!

Love can never be so beautiful without friendship.
One leads to another and the process is
irreversible. The best of lovers is the greatest of
friends!

I like you because you're my friend, and because
you are my friend I care, and because I care, I love
you. I don't love you because you are my friend, I
love you because I do!

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make
me happy? To think that I have everything else, I
get what I want. Then I realized it was YOU, too
bad 'cause it's you can't have. I can't choose who
I'm gonna love, but I also can't just love who
chooses to love me.

And you can't blame me in choosing to love you
as much as I can't blame you for not learning to
love me. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you
loved the one before me, so I'll let you go find
him/her and hope someday you'll see that the one
true love you're looking for was the one who set
you free.

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had?
Why do tears fall for someone who was never
mine? Why is that I miss someone I was never
with and I ask why I love someone who's love was
never mine?"

Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of
the one we think we love; we hardly notice the one
we're really looking for was just there. You don't
notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone
else.

Food for thought, think of this:
Have you really cared for someone more than
you expected?
Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all
the pain?
Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she
whispers someone else's name?
Will you?

It's better to lose your pride with someone you
love rather than lose that someone you love with
your useless pride. When you love someone, don't
expect that person to love you back the same
amount. One of you will be ahead, the other
behind. It's either you catch up or the other waits.
When you love, you must not accept anything in
return, for if you do, you're not loving but
Investing.

If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if
you expect happiness, you're not loving but
using. True love hears what is not spoken, and
understands what is not explained, for love
doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the
heart...

Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer
you stay the harder it is to leave and you can
never go without leaving your prints behind. Don't
love a person like a flower, because a flower dies
in season. Love them like a river because a river
flows forever. Love doesn't have to have a happy
ending, 'cause love doesn't have to end at
all. Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt
a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if you
don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even
more for not giving love a chance.

Love may leave your heart like shattered glass,
but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be
willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces
so you could be whole again.

The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is to let
her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her
fall! And fooling around with her feelings like they
meant nothing!!!

Haters..

2005-01-18T13:52:20Z

There are some things in life u can`t see by the look of a person ya know.. dpesn`t mean that they treat u nice , they are nice.. if u think thats true..then u r WRONG..Damn Wrong! My english teacher told me about a quote 'Never Judge A Book By It`s Cover' which is indeed true..so whoever is looking at this i wan`t y`all to remember 'Never Judge A Book By It`s Cover'.

Why i start up this topic? it`s becoz..since i worked i`ve seen all kinds of ppl...u name it,u got it.. my so-called-worker-frens.. who i thought was kinda good..in the end..like today..i slowly see their true colours...they are hating me..why? coz i sold a lot of things n i got commission coming in..they are jealous...some give me a kind of expression that i dislike..well, i don`t give an F@*k..screw those bitches. i ain`t scared of no bitches..the more they dislike what i`m doing..the more i do it...haha..screw it.. i`m outta here..

leong26 @ 2005-01-13T22:46:00

2005-01-13T15:20:40Z

They say the word'LOVE'is a very powerful word..n it`s true...Love can also make u do a lot of silly things.. Once a male is rejected by a girl after expressing his feelings to her...most ppl will retreat and feel defeated.. n only a fool would carry on,to continue loving that someone special.. n i`m one of that fool..

There`s this girl,whom i met.Her height was average,shoulder length hair,brown eyes. her face is fair,she looks like,what mos guys say 'pretty' to me it`s more that that..it`s just absolutely...beautiful..she`s a kind of girl that most guys would wanna have..a smile which takes ur breath away and leave u breathless..

Mos of u who are reading this might not believe this,but..knowing her longer makes me feel that i know myself a little bit more..like what do i want,what m i doing n all... knowing her is also a coincedence..which is good.All my life,i`m jus like a lost person in the past.. i duno what i want and what i wanna do in my life...until i met this girl..she showed me the way..n on the other side..she didn`t know she did..

It`s easy to like or have a crush on someone..but it`s defenitely difficult to love someone.. she doesn`t know that i have that feeling for her..n i`m sure if i express my feelings 4 her again..it will all be the same..i don think she`s ready..she`s tired..i understand that..all these thing can`t be forced..

Maybe i`m not the type of person u want..but i`m the type of person..who would be there for you if u need a helping hand or someone to share ur problems.. maybe i don`t know u well as much as ur frens do or anyone closer to you, but i`ll try my best to understand you n ur needs..

Maybe now is not the right time for you...i`ll keep on waiting and waiting till ur heal n able to move on..Even if u need a longer time..i`ll give you.. because it`s all worth fit..

You know who u r..if ur not sure..ask me..

leong26 @ 2005-01-13T22:11:00

2005-01-13T14:02:04Z

Heylo..wassup y`all... i`m jus checkin in here...nothing new happen...jus wanna say..to y`all have a nice day..take care.

Stalked!!!

2005-01-11T14:11:59Z

Fak man... i got stalked today...suddenly a message fro a girl saying 'hello handsome boy..how ru doing' i was like'......walin eh what crap is this'
n it goes on and on...a full minute of stalking question..n the way she sms me is like she wanna rape me or something..seriously...i still got her sms in my inbox y`all.. ni nia eh.

I wonder who the hell gave her my number...hmmm...

Grandma/Mom

2005-01-08T15:05:34Z

i would like to put the topic 4 the words that i listed bwlow..name 'Grandma/Mom'

leong26 @ 2005-01-08T22:26:00

2005-01-08T14:46:31Z

it`s another rainyday today...*sigh* for today, a rainy day, comes a sad time...why i say that? coz..the place that i work in..which sells electrical goods in gadong.. there`s an very old malay lady..i sumtimes see her...she`s about 4feet or more..i see her sumtimes walking in gadong carrying a basket behind her, selling bananas n salted fish..

For me..it`s hard n sad for me to se her do all this...really 'kesian'. so i decided o buy banans from her everytime she passby my place...it`s all good..

Today,afternoon it was raining heavily..i saw her again..she was carrying an umbrella..crossing on the road..to passby my place to sell her goods...as usual..i buy bananas from her..i don really eat bananas..i purposely buy banas from her..n so did some of my frens..so that she could gg home early n don have to wonder around in gadong n look 4 ppl to buy her goods..coz it ain`t safe..

After that..she walked away..i ask my fren (female),how`s the bananas..sweet she said..then i look back at the old women..to my surprised..she wasing wearing any shoes..my heart was hurt..i didn`t realised that she was walking bare footed walking all the way from 'rimba' to 'gadong'. it`s so damn far u know..jus to sell her goods so she could buy food 4 herself...she don`t deserve to be like this..it`s just wrong by the way i see it..
I asked my fren..'is she aloned'? she said no... i think she has a family wif kids n all that..impossible her kids are young rite or not? i`m sure her kids are grownup..i`m mad about what they did to there mom man...it`s jus damn faking wrong..her shoes are out of grip..i`m sure of it..thats why she have to be bare footed.. doesn`t her children gave her any money??? or at least buy her something...it`s just not fair..

Now...i know i not related to her n all..but i`m jus SAD seeing her like this..what is her children thinking?? leaving an old women taking care of herself?? where the fuck is ur symphaty,ur love 4 ur mom?? is that how u treat her after years of hardwork to raise u up n now u faking leave her behind?? when someone get old..they nag n all.. YES i agree..but think of..how long they are staying on this earth...thik about that..

*SIGH* i can`t take this no more.. gotta stop here..

leong26 @ 2005-01-05T22:37:00

2005-01-05T14:28:53Z

Me again...haha...nothing new happening..haha. oh yea i jus bought a streetball jersey.. 'Skip To My Lou`s' AND1`S jersey.. Numba 11! lol :p it`s pretty cool... i was thinking of buying another one..see wat jersey is left there... i ain`t gonna wear this skip jersey to play..haha..

Numb/Encore By Linkin Park feat Jay-Z

2005-01-04T13:59:38Z

Yeah
Thank you, thank you, thank you
You’re far too kind
Haha
Uh, yeah
Ready?
Let’s go

Can I get a encore? Do you want more?
Cookin’ raw with the Brooklyn boy
So, for one last time, I need y’all to roar
Now, what the hell are you waiting for?
After me, there shall be no more
So, for one last time, nigga, make some noise

Get ‘em, Jay

Who you know fresher than Hov? Riddle me that
The rest of y’all know where I’m lyrically at
Can’t none of y’all mirror me back
Yeah, hearin’ me rap is like hearin’ G. Rap in his prime
I’m young H.O.: Rap’s Grateful Dead
Back to take over the globe—now break bread
I’m in Boeing jets, Global Express
Out the country but the blueberry still connect
On the low but the yacht got a triple deck
But when you young what the fuck you expect? (yep, yep)
Grand openin’—grand closin’
God damn, your man Hov cracked the can open again
Who you gon’ find doper than him with no pen?
Just draw off inspiration
Soon you gon’ see you can’t replace him (him)
With cheap imitations for these generations

Can I get a encore? Do you want more?
Cookin’ raw with the Brooklyn boy
So, for one last time, I need y’all to roar
Now, what the hell are you waiting for?
After me, there shall be no more
So, for one last time, nigga, make some noise
What the hell are you waiting for

Look what you made me do, look what I made for you
Knew if I paid my dues how will they pay you?
When you first come in the game they try to play you
Then you drop a couple of hits—look how they wave to you
From Marcy to Madison Square
To the only thing that matters in just a matter of years (yeah)
As fate would have it Jay’s status appears
To be at an all-time high—perfect time to say goodbye
When I come back like Jordan wearin’ the four-five
It ain’t to play games with you
It’s to aim at you—probably maim you
If I owe you I’ll blow you to smithereens
Cocksucka’, take one for your team
And I need you to remember one thing (one thing)
I came, I saw, I conquered
From record sales to sold-out concerts
So mo’fucka’, if you want this encore
I need you to scream ‘til your lungs get sore

I’m tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
Don’t know what you’re expecting of me
Put under the pressure
Of walking in your shoes
Caught in the undertow
We’re just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
Caught in the undertow
We’re just caught in the undertow
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I’ve become so numb
I can’t feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I’m becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

I’ve become so numb
Can I get a encore? Do you want more? (more)
I’ve become so numb
So, for one last time, I need y’all to roar
One last time, I need y’all to roar